It’s 3:30am but I can’t get to sleep yet. I recently got back from the digital lab, clocking 8 hours today. How do I do that? ask my roommates. I answer: I dunno, class and then I just lose track of time. But really I know the answer, and it’s not that I forget what time it is, at least my body reminds me when I am hungry, thirsty or have to pee. I’ll usually ignore it for a while though, which leads me to feel weak and grumpy, so I definitely need to work on that. Smoothie camel-pak? with a built in blender….
The actual reason I get lost in that room, is because I have so many sources of inspiration, motivation and distraction all within reach at once. Believe it or not, I’m rarely even on the lab computers, but it doesn’t matter because the energy of people working, thinking and sharing is enough to create a powerful circuit of connections in my head. Everything seems to be separate and elemental at first, but bit by bit it gets sucked up into a tornado of plans, notes and actions with me swirling around in midst of it. For someone with ADD, its the best and most frustrating time. However everything will work out because I learned these things today:
1. Hands are personal. I need to choose the method that suits my own hands, and trust my instinctual process.
2. There are so many amazing mentors and supporters in our community, all we need to do is ask. Seriously, ask. Because if you don’t, you’ll deprive somebody else of the joy of helping you re-locate yourself.
3. Color-coded message/responses are awesome.
4. I should always vent through art and drawing.
5. I finally have a community of peers, and though small, we are a force to be reckoned with. But we really need more hours in the day if you want us to accomplish all of the dreams we can imagine.
[Am I truly co-directing a music video? I don’t even know how to do that stuff yet. It’s okay, neither does my classmate Lauren Bassam.]
6. My friend Jed feels close enough to me to mock me / experiment on me with his Improv Troupe. (I love you too, Jed).
7. I am the kind of person who can’t stop reaching even though I already have enough on my plate. Therefore I need something like tupperware containers to seal and save all these ideas and transport them for later when I can really get into them.
Crap. it’s almost 4. Tomorrow is an art-less day… which is why I’m reluctant to give up this one.